My whole life I have always wanted more. Whether it were more LEGOs as a child, a faster time on the cross-country course in high school, or more results in my ministry, I have always wanted more. It’s a challenge to be content with what is right in front of me.
I’ve found dissatisfaction much easier to come by, as compared to its more positive counterparts: contentment and thankfulness. It is far easier to point out what is not going my way than to celebrate what is. Often I reflect on my life and I feel that it’s not good enough; I want more. I look at my relationships and feel I’m not being cared for the way I’d like. I look at my ministry and it’s so easy to compare to other churches and other leaders feeling inadequate. I compare compare compare.
At times, this perspective has led me to frustration and even anger at God. “Why God? Why can’t it be this way or that? Why can’t it be easier? Why can’t I have more fun? Why can’t things work out just the way I planned?” I can go on and on, questioning and asking for more.
Maybe you can relate. Maybe when you evaluate your life you are quick to see the flaws and slow to celebrate the joys. Maybe you’re frequently dissatisfied and longing for more. And maybe your lens is just like mine, marred by dissatisfaction.
I think our standards and expectations need refurbishing. I so often forget that I do not deserve any of it. The “more” that I always seem to want is not what I’m entitled to. In fact, Romans 6:23a states that I deserve quite the opposite of a perfect life.
“For the wages of sin is death…”
On our own, we can never measure up; we are never qualified to earn God’s grace, love, and salvation. Left alone we are stuck; we are trapped in captivity and rightly face punishment. But by God’s grace, what we deserve and what Jesus offers differ drastically. The verse goes on to deliver some very good news.
“… but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
When Jesus came to rescue the world, he changed everything; Jesus’ interference changed our stories forever. And for us, anything short of death is divine intervention. Only through God’s mercy are we set free. If we consider what we owe, we cannot fairly blame the one who pays our debt. Jesus is the more we have always longed for. He is the answer to our longings and our cries.
When we rest in Jesus’ promise of abundant life the questions, the comparisons, and the misguided longings fall away. That doesn’t mean life miraculously becomes easy or perfect; it means that Jesus is all we need. He is our “more”.
What if we replaced dissatisfaction with joy? What if we spent more time celebrating the eternal life we have in Christ than contemplating our lack? I know my life would look different. How would yours look?
By Will Aufhammer, College Ministry Director